Monthly Archives: March 2008

Why Not Write About Writer’s Block?

I’m afraid I’m not the type who enjoys reading about what people had for breakfast, or what they bought at the mall. The unfortunate result of this is that I feel I can’t write in my own blog unless I actually have something of substance to say. ~blech~

I have been plagued with writer’s block for quite some time now – which is serious as I am trying to make some headway freelancing online. I have started grinding my teeth at night – I wake up with blinding pain in all my teeth. The pain lances up into my eyes, into my ears and down my neck. This is a new thing for me and I can only think it has to do with my writing, as nothing else is bothering me so much.

I am still unemployed. I am truthfully holding out for a job that will start in late April, as it will provide both my husband and myself full medical and dental benefits, even though it’s only part time. I am becoming a shut in, though.

Maybe that’s why I have writer’s block.




Ferraro, Racism & being Baffled by Americans

I thought this was interesting…

The American media is up in arms regarding a comment made by former Vice Presidential Nominee Geraldine Ferraro. She apparently said in an interview that Barak Obama would not be in the position that he is now were he not black. She said that he wouldn’t have gotten as far as he has on the experience and with the resume he’s got at such a young age if he were white. She apparently said he is “lucky” he is who he is.

Of course, everyone is calling the comments racist and Clinton (of whom Ferraro is a supporter) has disavowed the comments. Everyone is shocked and horrified that someone like Ferraro, who should have some political savvy, would say such things. Others, of course, are implying that the comment was calculated by the Clinton campaign as a slander that could be disseminated by her side, yet as she herself didn’t say it, still be disavowed. She gets to cut down Obama while keeping her hands clean.

What startled me (perhaps because I’m Canadian) is that I thought everyone would be angry because she called the American People racist. As soon as I heard about what she’d said I thought the pundits and the media would be all over her for accusing them of being racist. She basically accused the American people of voting for someone based on their race, the campaign contributors for giving their money to someone based on their race, and the media for being influenced in their coverage by a candidate’s race.

Yet they accused her of being a racist.

Almost every American I’ve ever met has been a great person, but I have to say they baffle me.


Eve, Eden, Virginity and Reckless Abandon

I just came from a forum where there was a lot of discussion regarding Eve and the Apple and the Garden of Eden – specifically, could she be held responsible for her action since she hadn’t yet eaten of the apple. Since the apple contained the knowledge of Good and Evil and she hadn’t eaten it yet, the poster reasoned, she didn’t have the capacity to understand that what she was doing was wrong.

Others, of course, countered that she was a grown woman and God had given her a direct instruction, etc., etc.. This whole discussion started my mind on a peculiar track.

I’m not a Christian, but my mother taught Sunday School when she was young. I remember a story of the uprising of Lucifer against God and how half the angels sided with Lucifer and half stayed with God. After some pretty hardcore fighting, one angel came back to God, because he decided he was on the wrong side after all. God made this angel the most revered of angels, because he had known temptation – even succumbed to it, but then made the decision to return to God.

The idea being that this angel had attained a higher level of obedience: not just innocent obedience – not knowing anything but devotion; but actually having been down the dark road and come back – the obedience of the adult. The choice of obedience. God held this in higher esteem, apparently.

What struck me about the discussion in the forum – and maybe this is because (or WHY) I’m not a Christian… everyone was discussing whether Eve was responsible for a terrible thing, or not responsible for a terrible thing….no one seems to be respecting her for her decision.

Eve was told one thing by God, and one thing by the serpent. She weighed them both, and made a decision. She decided to know. She decided to step out of childhood, out of the cradle. To walk the dark path, like that angel. Innocence must end if we want to attain a higher level of existance.

It’s like when we talk about “losing” our virginity, like it was a happenstance, an accident, a misstep. We never refer to it as “the first time I met someone I wanted to share myself with completely” or “the day I decided to claim my sexuality” or even “the first time I decided to have sex”. Losing your virginity sounds like we’re presupposing it was inadvertent and we wish we could take it back.

I didn’t lose my virginity – I threw it away.

Rather enthusiastically, I might add.

Mmmmm….with reckless abandon!

Eve, you go girl! I’m with ya!



I return!

Well, I have to say I’ve been having a hard time balancing my desire to write only entries of substance, with my desire to write entries daily!

This wonderful blog entry:

has inspired me!